Thursday, January 22, 2009

Promises, Promises

Okay, folks, I got myself in trouble this time. I commented on Mimi's blog and (somewhat inadvertently) committed myself to participating. I have an entire year to forget and procrastinate! Yet, I live in hope.

I agreed to participate in the following “crazy train” so now I must post the following:
"Crazy Chain of Making" (from ramsey to Jocelyn to Laura to Mimi to me)

The first five people to respond to this post will get something made by me. It will be about or tailored to those five people.

This offer does have some restrictions and limitations:
- I make no guarantees that you will like what I make!
- What I create will be just for you.
- It'll be completed this year.
- You have no clue what it's going to be or when its going to be. It may be fiction. It may be poetry. I may draw or paint something. I may bake you something and mail it to you. Who knows? Not you, that's for sure!
- I reserve the right to do something extremely strange.

The catch? Oh, the catch is that you have to put this in your journal as well, if you expect me to do something for you!

*Please put your postal address & email address in your comment or email it to me!
In other news, I am sick. I have committed to taking Teddy to a Tampa Bay area clergy vasilopita cutting—very confusing; what's wrong with January 1?—tomorrow night. Fr. Peter will be starting his lifeguarding training, so he won't be going.

I also want to say that I have a total crush on this blog (this post in particular, and the blog in general). The pictures and writings are reflections of true beauty which I believe is only found in a life lived in pursuit of Truth (Himself). I understand that when one has time to blog, things often look nicer than the everyday messes of life, but I'm the kind of person who goes to museums and says, "I need this for my house." (Rather a problem when the original items included a large assembly of household and grounds staff ...) But I do need this for my life: a commitment to strive for the good things, to make my family into saints, to make our house into a home (somehow this involves vacuuming more often, I think), and to participate more fully in creation (gardening and volunteering). I am so frustrated that I am, and will always be, miles away from all of my goals, and that it's so difficult to just keep up with just the very basics (forget dishes and cleaning the bathroom, I'm talking remembering to get dressed and eat meals, nevermind trying to get back to meal planning).

I want to be the kind of person who has a calm center based on prayer and service to Christ. I want to be well-educated, aware of the issues in the world and local community—not just someone with an expensive piece of paper. I want to be able to invite people over to our house for dinner more often than twice a year. I want to not have to remember where I've stuffed the papers I hid (to be filed) when cleaning up for houseguests. I'll be 29 in March, and I don't feel even slightly grown up, except that I can make myself eat vegetables sometimes. It's hard to fight off the feeling that since I want something that's really hard to get, that it's not even worth trying—I think that has always been my hardest obstacle.

I finished reading a Montessori book today, and while I don't agree with several of the authors' ideas ("doctrine and dogma" seem just as bad to them as "Naziism and socialism"—what?!), I do like the idea of giving the child tools which will be useful to him as a man. I have to work to acquire the tools of self-discipline, cleanliness, and order before I can help my son.

I think I will start by taking my vitamin for the day and drinking another large glass of orange juice.

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Blogger Laura said...

vitamin + orange juice = a good start.

Don't be so hard on yourself...take baby steps and pray as you go!

Thu Jan 22, 05:08:00 PM CST  
Blogger Mairs said...

I have to work to acquire the tools of self-discipline, cleanliness, and order before I can help my son.

Nope, don't short-change him or yourself! - there's lots of things the two of you will discover together! I always say things like patience, order, discipline are all on-the-job training and, believe me, he will help you with most of them - NOT the other way around! lol

(And, hey, I thought being a grown-up was when you didn't have to eat your vegetables because you're the one who can say so now! My children, btw, don't even know what brussel sprouts are. lol)

Mon Jan 26, 11:18:00 PM CST  

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