Change
Reading Dear Abby, I came across the phrase or idea that So-and-so "will never change." It hit me: that's what people believe. Except I'm not talking about someone else never changing. I'm talking about not believing that you can change yourself—or at least be changed. If you don't allow yourself the idea that you can change, yes, you're taking the easy way out, but you are losing. If you can't change, you're stuck with all the horrible things about yourself. You let yourself be lazy and think—if you still remember to—that you can't change.
Once you get over that, and accept the idea that you can change... Okay, forget the "you." I'm really just talking to/about myself. (I hope.) Then it's mandatory. I've been obsessing about this, feeling that I'm falling into laziness, that I can't get up and do good.
It is easier to be lazy. But it's an unhappy place to be.
I don't like work, but I am unhappy when I have no work to do.
Please pray for me, a sinner. Let me be changed.
Once you get over that, and accept the idea that you can change... Okay, forget the "you." I'm really just talking to/about myself. (I hope.) Then it's mandatory. I've been obsessing about this, feeling that I'm falling into laziness, that I can't get up and do good.
It is easier to be lazy. But it's an unhappy place to be.
I don't like work, but I am unhappy when I have no work to do.
Please pray for me, a sinner. Let me be changed.
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You have my prayers.
(by the way, I *think* I figured out the ending of "Time Traveler's Wife" but thank you for the offer. I wasn't quite sure what precipitated the end, but I reread it (with a few less tears) and figured my first impression was right).
This is exactly what the homily at Mass was about this week. The message was presented in a very powerful way, too, which always makes you take note. Although I know I still have work to do, I think this Lent has prepared me well, perhaps better than any previous Lent, to accept and strive to maintain the changes I have made.
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